...............................................................................Being
........................................................never.............................Human
...............................................seem................................................................a
.........................................to.....................¿ME...............................................being
...................................get..............................to..........................................................does
..........................................any................weird...........................................................WHY
.........................................................less
I want to be honest with you in expressing the very difficult shadow emotions I have been working diligently to unconditionally embrace as of late...weaning them from my unconscious closets. I know that we in spiritual community are all eager, and even competitive, to share transformative Love and Light. While I relate to this purpose, I have also been struggling with a feeling of guilt. I did not expect it to be so hard to do what I came here to do. It feels like a curse just as much as a blessing to see as much as I do, but yet never enough to give me both sides of the pendulum simultaneously. It gets entangled in my guts...very strong waves of emotional textures wrap around my lower chakras like oceans of doom which reverberate so strongly with the shadow emotions of this human grid. I feel guilt for sharing part in creating such a painful place of suffering as a technology to lead into our Consciousness Evolution.
I feel twisted between my being constantly triggered by the monkey-mind which I see all around me, and is recognizable in my own tendencies also. I try so hard to not feel judgmental toward the sea of ignorance from what feels like the small dingy of my compassion. I feel guilt that I lose sight of feeling unconditional love and compassion for my Gaia Babies because of how they torment one another and themselves, a tunnel of emotion which warps with every trial to authentically connect to Us and myself as one of Us.
I could be so ecstatic living in an ashram, so far away in nature, back to my consciousness subsisting in a state of Darmic Dreamtime within a cool amethyst cave...forget about this temporary form and the species to which I have chosen to belong. Heck it was what I did for so long. But to continue to do so would be delusional toward why I came. My promise I have made to you so long ago, I came here to keep. To play a key role in assisting Us find connection within the Collective Self, it was necessary for me to explore your contrast with you, to contrast and re-align alongside and with you...to forge a new wave and frontier of conscious technology from within this collective Heartscape and the Vast Sea of our Divine Love that starts within the heart of One realizing the connectivity of its own Beingness with all Beingness beyond form. To be a human being is to learn to perceive Beingness that knows no bounds to Who or What it is beyond it's willingness to crash upon wave after wave in knowing its own tenacity to Love beyond all odds.
To be a human being is to learn to perceive Beingness that knows no bounds to Who or What it is beyond it's willingness to crash upon wave after wave in knowing its own tenacity to Love beyond all odds...
To have an ego is to be a human and to explore the individual concept of Self. The paradox of this technology is that when we let go and stop resisting, it catapults us forward into a more transcendental and liberated perspective. I have heard many teachers talk about the illusion of the Ego. To say we are born into a technology which works against us could not be any less serving than the idea of 'original sin'. It is a paradoxic lens which allows us to have the illusion of individuality, which then serves our ability for the Beingness to witness itself through a type of sentience. I am letting go of labels and titles and advertising of skills and trusting into I AM until every single desire simply informs us of what is so rich to Us within the present. I choose to greet My ashram within every sentient Beingness, within every rock, cloud, within tender creature and giant beast, within every heart fostering Our Beingness. May the illusion of the enemy, which perpetually drives us from Self-Realization now beat our swords into the plows which break through the fertile soil into our Self Liberation.
I Love you within All that I AM,
MeTa MeLa <3 <3 <3
........................................................never.............................Human
...............................................seem................................................................a
.........................................to.....................¿ME...............................................being
...................................get..............................to..........................................................does
..........................................any................weird...........................................................WHY
.........................................................less
I want to be honest with you in expressing the very difficult shadow emotions I have been working diligently to unconditionally embrace as of late...weaning them from my unconscious closets. I know that we in spiritual community are all eager, and even competitive, to share transformative Love and Light. While I relate to this purpose, I have also been struggling with a feeling of guilt. I did not expect it to be so hard to do what I came here to do. It feels like a curse just as much as a blessing to see as much as I do, but yet never enough to give me both sides of the pendulum simultaneously. It gets entangled in my guts...very strong waves of emotional textures wrap around my lower chakras like oceans of doom which reverberate so strongly with the shadow emotions of this human grid. I feel guilt for sharing part in creating such a painful place of suffering as a technology to lead into our Consciousness Evolution.
I feel twisted between my being constantly triggered by the monkey-mind which I see all around me, and is recognizable in my own tendencies also. I try so hard to not feel judgmental toward the sea of ignorance from what feels like the small dingy of my compassion. I feel guilt that I lose sight of feeling unconditional love and compassion for my Gaia Babies because of how they torment one another and themselves, a tunnel of emotion which warps with every trial to authentically connect to Us and myself as one of Us.
I could be so ecstatic living in an ashram, so far away in nature, back to my consciousness subsisting in a state of Darmic Dreamtime within a cool amethyst cave...forget about this temporary form and the species to which I have chosen to belong. Heck it was what I did for so long. But to continue to do so would be delusional toward why I came. My promise I have made to you so long ago, I came here to keep. To play a key role in assisting Us find connection within the Collective Self, it was necessary for me to explore your contrast with you, to contrast and re-align alongside and with you...to forge a new wave and frontier of conscious technology from within this collective Heartscape and the Vast Sea of our Divine Love that starts within the heart of One realizing the connectivity of its own Beingness with all Beingness beyond form. To be a human being is to learn to perceive Beingness that knows no bounds to Who or What it is beyond it's willingness to crash upon wave after wave in knowing its own tenacity to Love beyond all odds.
To be a human being is to learn to perceive Beingness that knows no bounds to Who or What it is beyond it's willingness to crash upon wave after wave in knowing its own tenacity to Love beyond all odds...
To have an ego is to be a human and to explore the individual concept of Self. The paradox of this technology is that when we let go and stop resisting, it catapults us forward into a more transcendental and liberated perspective. I have heard many teachers talk about the illusion of the Ego. To say we are born into a technology which works against us could not be any less serving than the idea of 'original sin'. It is a paradoxic lens which allows us to have the illusion of individuality, which then serves our ability for the Beingness to witness itself through a type of sentience. I am letting go of labels and titles and advertising of skills and trusting into I AM until every single desire simply informs us of what is so rich to Us within the present. I choose to greet My ashram within every sentient Beingness, within every rock, cloud, within tender creature and giant beast, within every heart fostering Our Beingness. May the illusion of the enemy, which perpetually drives us from Self-Realization now beat our swords into the plows which break through the fertile soil into our Self Liberation.
I Love you within All that I AM,
MeTa MeLa <3 <3 <3